Tonight I… well, we went to church and we almost didn’t stay because there wasn’t a sermon, just praise and worship and then a potluck dinner (which we didn’t know about and so didn’t bring anything). But we decided to stay for praise and worship and then after praise and worship the pastor did an alter call to pray for families and familial needs and I just broke down crying…… no that’s not completly accurate, I was sobbing.
So Don took my hand and led me up for prayer and we were being prayed over and I just could not stop crying. I’m not talking about tears running down my cheeks, I’m talking sobs, big can’t catch my breath crying. The only thing going through my mind was my kids being away from us next year, how worried I am for them, how much I am gonna miss them, how terribly sad I am at the whole thing and I just cried and cried and cried.
Poor Don – he is so awesome – I didn’t even tell him what I was crying for. I couldn’t have talked even if I wanted to. He just held onto me and let me cry and prayed over us and then listened and held me even tighter when I told him that I guess I am just not handling this whole kids in Vegas thing as well as I thought I was. I feel so much better after crying like that and being prayed over and totally comforted and loved by my amazing husband. I’m still sad, but I know that they are going to be ok, that God is with them when we are not and that they are really good kids.
Sometimes a dam has to break for relief to be found. I feel better now.