Life has been tough for our little family for a long time now. We’ve been through some very extreme ups and downs over the last few years. From being on top of the world in 2006 when Don was making exceptionally good money at a job he enjoyed, we had a gazillion friends and were always very busy socially. We owned a home that we loved with a swimming pool and both of us were driving vehicles we loved driving. We were living good, our relationship was strong, all our kids were at home with us. We were truly on top of the world. But there at the top we were making decisions, that, when added to the conditions of the economy, would prove disastrous to our life. Taking on too many financial commitments without praying about it, without agreeing on it and without any grace. The economy started to tank and our life started falling apart. We were fighting more, our tempers were short fuses that had our kids walking on eggshells. We started drowning financially and it just got worse from there.
Between 2007 and 2012 we went from the very top of the world to the very pits of hell. There were moments in those five years when we were without water, power, a home, a vehicle. We went to bed hungry more than once, three of our five kids went to live with their other parent, we lost jobs, lost faith, and damn near lost each other. We filed bankruptcy, gained jobs and lost them, made two major moves (from az to tx and then from tx to ga) trying to get it right. It has been a very rough five years.
Through all of those hard times, we kept trying to figure out which bad decision had led to which bad consequence and how could we keep from repeating that situation. We talked and talked and talked and talked and screamed and cried and argued and slammed doors and came really close to walking away from all of it, everything. Somehow we held it together and starting last summer, what looked (in the beginning) like just another bad decision is shaping up to be a life changing event.
Now, as we go boldly into 2013 it’s looking like maybe, just maybe, we are heading into an upswing, blessed time of our lives.
We know that blessing will come with tests and trials and temptations to see if we have learned anything at all from the five years of hell we have just been through and we are praying and believing for wisdom and discernment that will lead us to continue to make good decisions and handle our blessings with integrity, that we will be better stewards of the good things we are given and from that stewardship will come blessings and from those blessings we will become better stewards and the circle of good will continue and the circle of bad will be broken.
We’ve been blessed with a good job, a super adorable house, a nice town to live in and now an awesome new car. We are not taking these blessings lightly and we are working hard to do better this time around. It’s amazing how differently you treat blessings when you’ve lost so much before. New blessings of any kind (financial, emotional, personal, material, etc) are treated more carefully when you know just how quickly you can go from being blessed to being cursed. I want to enjoy every moment. We aren’t meant to live in fear, in doubt, in perpetual discouragement and I don’t want to.
I believe that 2013 brings us back to the top and I am believing that this time we are ready to stay there. To be good grownups and make good choices and give back and enjoy the life we’ve been given.
and… OH MY GOSH!!!! Look at this car!!! How can you not be happy zipping around in such a fun little car?!?!?!? I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE driving this car! 🙂