My father’s daughter? Really? The irresponsible daughter? Sometimes I wonder why it is so bad to be the whimsical, determined, hopeful, by the seat of my pants daughter that I am? Really, what is wrong with that. Is it so wrong to pick up and do something different, even it is a little risky and a little scary? To be excited by the prospect of doing just such a thing?
I am determined. I know without a doubt that we have learned so much over the last couple of years, that we are different with our money than we were and all we need is a chance for a change. We are only $600 away from having everything we need to go and start over again. My family thinks we are running away and that we will find ourselves in the same situation there but I know better. I know the opportunity is better there. I know we can make a difference. I know it will be better there. There is work there. We have family and friends there.
I think it’s wonderful that I can make decisions quickly and with determination. That I can think things through quickly and that I don’t live with regrets in my life. I love that no matter what the results are to my decisions, I will make the best of them. Not every decision can be made with a no-risk guarantee. I think it is exciting to think of starting over, of starting with nothing and building it again. I did it in Vegas. We moved there with less than we are leaving here with and lived in a 433 sq ft apartment in the beginning. When we divorced we lived in a big three bedroom house, had two cars, had bought or accumulated a houseful of furniture and electronics. We had good jobs and a savings account. If the recession had not hit this town so hard or if Don and I had recession proof jobs (which we don’t) then we wouldn’t be where we are now either. It has been a hard two years and a lot of lessons learned the hard way, but we know how not to make them again – it’s just the options here are too limited. We have to go somewhere where there are options, room for growth, more opportunity. All we have to do is get there.
I think when we start over now, we are prepared to make good decisions and manage our money well. Certainly we won’t be sitting around collecting unemployment because we got laid off – we are taking charge of this shitty economy and making the best of it in the best place.
I’m not sitting around here waiting to be out of money and out of job with no car and no place to live – NO THANK YOU! I am taking control of my life and making it better than ever. I am depending on God to make this happen. One avenue closed – that’s ok, another way will come. I am believing, I am trusting God for my answer and the way to be made.
We are leaving for Texas Monday morning at 3 a.m. We will have the money. The car will make it. It is our new beginning and NO ONE can take that away from us. Please take a moment and belive with me for our new beginning and the finances we need to get to it. I believe it is called optimism and I am up to my eyeballs in it.